132 lbs!! Fuck this feels great. I had to go buy new pants today as my old ones were hanging off me.

I'm so happy :)

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Scrub that, I'm currently 58 kg - 127 lbs. I can't believe it. I haven't been eating much at all really but without a doubt it's the fact I'm working that's done this. Like last time, before I left for America again, the weight just fell off me.

I went to one of my favorite stores the other day, just to try on a pair of size 10 jeans, just to see if I could fit into them - I can't believe I even got them zipped up! They were perfect.. ugh, I had to force myself to put them back though, I can't afford to blow £45 on jeans right now. Talk about a confidence boost though!

I've been working my ass off in my new, highly physical job...yet I haven't lost anything. I've been home alone for nearly two weeks & I haven't been eating much... yet I still haven't lost anything.

I'm like 138lbs?

I'm actually feeling happy in myself right now so it's not too big a deal but....138?

I'll admit, I have been bingeing more than a bit. This is probably why I haven't lost anything. I have my reasons for the whole food thing right now. But atleast I'm not putting any on. I'm still down a dress size too (UK 10 - US 8). - thank christ for the job then ahe!

 

I'm working my ass off, literally. I can barely afford my bus fare right now let alone scales so I'm roughly judging off my parent's pair which are slightly ski-wiff & the fact that my pants are hanging off me. I see a difference in parts of my body like my collar bones, legs & tummy - not to mention my fat ass which now fits into a UK size 10 no problem.

I was a 10 in high school... over the past few years it's just gone up, my highest being a 14 in some cases - you know what womens sizes are like right? but yeah, I'm still on track & lucky for me, I haven't had an appetite the past three weeks of being back here. - My mother has noticed.

The...28th (?) will be my six month anniversary being self-injury free. 6 whole months. Feels like a lifetime. So, & maybe this might sound strange to some, after all it is going to physically hurt.... I'm going to get my first tattoo.

I haven't booked an appointment just yet but I know what I want; "Equilibrium" ("Equanimity") in Tibetan across my left wrist. I want it on my left,

a) because I don't need to draw too much more attention to the scars on my right arm which are healing up nicely...I'd rather see that one completely fresh & clean.

b) because the meaning of "balance" (emotional balance) could only look right in a sort of...ying/yang way.

I have too many piercings to mention but I am still a bit nervous of how much it will hurt. But then again, as a hardened SI'er I'm sure it's nothing I can't handle..heh.

Anyways, Thinspo!